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Another year passes by..

So, finally i managed to write this post after 11 long months! Year 2010 had been full of developments (personally and professionally) for me. Lots of learning, a shift of place and much more.. More responsibilities at work and home gives me a quite a boring feel at times.. feels like going back to childhood days many a times..

Going back to the memory lane of the year.. here are the highlights of 2010..

  • My new job..(which i used to like initially by started getting bored of it)
  • Tutu’s (My hubby) new job (He is all set for another new job early 2011)
  • New home in gurgaon (the best thing to happen to me in 2010, praying to get my own new house in 2011)
  • Endless movies and outings in gurgaon (literally aware of chappa chappa of Ambience Mall 😉 now..
  • Official travels.. some I can never forget were Lucknow and Patna.. memorable trips ever..
  • Making Good friends at work again.. (i am thankful to god for always blessing me with good friends at work)
  • Stronger and ever growing bonding with sweetheart..
  • Another, important happening was my Art of Living Course.. helped me a lot in knowing myself better, living a peaceful life.. and most important learning to be Happy always! 🙂

Won’t talk about worst things which happened in 2010 since its always good to move over the past 🙂

Looking forward to 2011! And, the best way would be to celebrate the start of the new year would be with a nice holiday! 🙂


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Here I am back..

So, here I am at my favorite place, I know I have been away for a really long time.. Actually I  have been a lot more active on Twitter all these days and blog had to take a back seat and yeah my new iphone kept me really engrossed with all those interesting games and apps 🙂

While browsing I happened to read this wonderful quote today:

“You can’t talk your way out of something you behaved your way into. You have to behave your way out of it.”

I think all of us go so much out of our way to hurt someone.. we do things we ourselves can’t imagine… and when it comes to resolving..we say let’s talk! I am not saying that talking is not important, in fact, it is the most important trait for keeping any relationship healthy… but then, there are certain goof-ups which can’t or rather shouldn’t be solved by mere talking… one must get into action!!!

While I talk about relationships, its more important to be more understanding with your partner..  all the fights, arguments, misunderstandings in a relationship gives us enough things to learn from life..

I can think of a great example for learning from things that might otherwise go unnoticed – In Hindu marriages, there is a custom wherein both the bride and the groom have a thick thread tied on their wrists during pre-wedding ceremonies and that has seven knots in it…and tight ones! Now, both of them have to open all those knots on each other’s wrist (which is a tough job)… many, actually most, people just do it… without even thinking about it.  And most of them obviously find it really tough. But both of us were probably little different, we were helping each other in doing that… despite of all the opposition from everyone. And believe me…it was almost a cakewalk for us! Now when I think about it, I could relate it to the difficulties a couple might face in life…with each other or with someone else. So there will always be many problems in life, but if you can stick by each other in the time of adversity, it can sail through anything and everything!

Right now i can mention many examples here.. but won’t make this post any more longer.. and end it here..

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Shocking Two weeks of my life…

This blog post may sound boring to some of you.. but I believe its important to know how shady is the healthcare system in our country and how the health and well being of the citizens of this country are treated by our esteemed government institution of this country..

Friday Night.. 7th August 2009.. I and my husband decided to go for a one day driving trip to Chandigarh..

Saturday Early morning.. 8th August 2009.. around 7 am.. we started from our home town Delhi to Chandigarh.. I was absolutely feeling fine and healthy.. just had a little cough.. Apart from little cough I did not had any other problem.. We had a good drive and it was me who drove all the way to Chandigarh.. so one can imagine how physically fit I may have been at that time.. On our way to Chandigarh.. we took a hault at HAVELI near Karnal.. (This is the place I believe i may have transmitted the virus of swine flu.. I happened to use the washroom of that place and there were many foreign visitors)..

When we started from Karnal.. i was almost fine.. just a little tired.. which is pretty normal after a drive of about 3-4 hours of continuous driving..

As soon as we reached Chandigarh sector 17 market.. hoping to have some good time.. I started having symptoms of flu… I got very high fever.. severe bodyache.. drowsiness etc.. we had a coffee at place in sector 17 market Chandigarh.. i thought its just the hot weather which is doing all this to me.. never ever imagined that it may be the attack of the deadly virus.. after looking at my condition, we decided not to drive back to Delhi the same day.. and decided to spend the night at Parwanoo Timber Trail Resort after confirming our booking over the phone.. we headed towards the Timber Train Resort.. we checked in at the hotel.. at that time.. i happened to have body temperature of about 104.. I took a Crocin Pain Relief tablet.. which helped me feel better for few hours but of no rescue.. my condition was not good even the next morning.. i called up my doctor Sunday morning from Parwanoo.. he suggested me to take Crocin only and meet him in the evening when I am back in Delhi.. We decided to drive back to Delhi at earliest possible.. we reached Delhi around 3 in the afternoon..

I went to see my Doctor in Max Hospital, Patparganj.. after discussing the condition with him.. he kind of assured me that its not Swine Flu.. its a viral spread all over the Northern India.. and suggested me to go for some Throat Examination.. Though he recommended me to go for Swine Flu examination.. we (me and my husband) immediately rushed to sample collection center in East Delhi.. Lal Bahadur Shastri Hospital in Mayur Vihar.. I was impressed with the staff at the center.. as soon as we entered.. we were given masks for safety sake.. and they took my throat and nasal samples after understanding my condition.. Doctor in the sample collection room was quite helpful.. she suggested me to be isolated till the reports come.. and suggested me a course of Tamiflu for 5 days.. She even said that it generally takes 3-4 days for the reports to come due to heavy rush.. if you will be a confirmed case of Swine Flu, you will get a call from the hospital.. she also said very affirmatively that if you are a negative case of Swine Flu, you will not get any intimation from us as we are already having a rush of people coming in for the test..

Yeah she was right.. I got a call from the hospital.. but not after 3-4 days of giving the sample.. I got it after 13 days…

So, what all did I  went through during those 13 days.. here it goes..

Day 3.. Monday 10th August..

I suffered from high fever.. severe bodyache.. bad cough..running nose.. my apetite was low.. i was bed ridden.. and i decided to remain isolated and not meet anyone else except 3 immediate members of my family.. my husband.. mom and dad.. (all three of them luckily have been fine since then and had no symptoms of Swine Flu and are healthy..

Day 4.. Tuesday 11th August..

I had high fever.. though the body temprature came down to 102.. but had severe bodyache and bad cough and all..

Day 5.. Wednesday 12th August..

I started recovering from fever.. temprature went down to 100 and bodyaches started improving.. but i had a really bad cough.. my husband got the reports of the throat came from Max Hospital.. which suggested a bacteria infection in my throat.. (this test report with the bacteria infection helped us believe that there are little chances of Swine Flu.. but we still decided to get the reports from the hospital the next day)

Day 6.. Thursday 13th August..

We tried calling at the phone number given to us by the doctor who took my samples in Lal Bahadur Shastri Hospital.. but they were of no use.. they had no information of my reports.. my husband infact visited the hospital and came back frustrated that no body had any information on the same..)

We then visited my Doctor with the reports of bacterial infection in my throat.. he suggested me a medication of 7 days and said it unlikely to have Swine Fly and this kind of infection together.. but we should wait for the reports..

I started on the medication he suggested and my condition started improving.. all these days.. I did not went out or met anyone outside my family members.. visiting the doctor..

Day 7-8-9.. Friday 14th August – Sunday 16th August..

Our hope got stronger of me being tested -ve for Swine Flu.. as there were no information from the Hospital and I started recovering at a good pace.. i was in a very good condition in those 3 days.. a friend from Bangalore visited me on Saturday.. we even went out for a coffee in a near by shopping mall..

On Sunday.. we even went to watch a movie “Kaminey” in Spice Mall Noida.. Believe me I had no symptoms of viral in those 3 days and i was almost in perfect shape..

Day 10.. Monday 17th August..

I joined my work.. with little low on energy.. but i managed to spend the whole day at work without any problem.. Though i was little tired by the end of day.. it happened to be a OK day for me..

Day 11-12-13-14.. Tuesday 18th August – Friday 21st August..

It had been a good and comfortable week for me at work.. all was well.. though i had been low on energy.. during the week i happened to complete the medication suggested by my doctor for the throat infection..  and i had been feeling good by the end of Friday and meeting my family over the dinner.. i was quite excited for the weekend..

Day 15.. Saturday 22nd August..

I had a lazy start to my weekend.. I had been feeling little tired since morning.. the reason i can think of this tiredness is that m still not physically fit.. having a good day @ home.. after cooking 3 good meals, going to the nearby market.. having a good sleep of 2 hours.. i was feeling pretty good..

At 9 pm, I was in the Kitchen.. when my phone rang.. and that phone call brought a news of shock to me.. the guy said I am calling from Lal Bahadur Shastri Hospital.. you were tested for Swine Flu on 9th August and your reports just came and you have been confirmed as a Postive Case for Swine Flu… After listening to him.. I didn’t knew what to say to him.. he asked me if I have any symptoms till now.. i told me that I don’t have any sypmtoms.. just a very little cough.. and lot of weakness.. he asked if anyone around me has any symptoms.. i told him that there are no cases.. he asked me to visit the doctor in the Hospital and take the counselling..

After that call, my brain started working whom all I met during last 2 weeks and if anyone has any symptoms.. then i recalled that my friend Rakshit @ work is down with fever for the last 2 days.. i immediately called him and asked his condition.. he’s still suffering from fever.. and asked him to go for the swine flu examination and I am just crossing my fingers that he doesn’t have swine flu..

My husband immediately called another friend of our who visited us on 15th August from bangalore, if he’s fine.. luckily he’s well and have no such symptoms.. 🙂

After having a quick dinner.. we immediately rushed to the Lal Bahadur Shastri Hospital.. the staff told us that your reports came in today itself.. as you are fine now and this deadly virus does not last for more than 7 days… and there are no chances that I may have spread the virus at my workplace.. and Rakshit (the friend at work who is down with fever for last two days) had not got infected through me..

I am feeling better now after meeting the doctors.. but the question still lies.. what if I happen to meet anyone during the course of first week when I was on the urge of spreading virus.. what if this deadly disease may have spread the movie hall where I went for a movie last sunday.. what if anyone may get the infection from me on 14th August in a mall where I happen to go with my husband and a friend and all this because of the delay in getting the reports of the test..

Can’t we have a better infrastructure in place.. does it really take 15 days for the reports to come.. ?? Who is going to answer all these questions to me.. There has already been 48 casualities due to this deadly virus.. and 2539 people suffered from this virus.. and there are many more cases every day all because we do not have a good healthcare system in place.. I am feeling lucky at this time but am really really worried about many people whom I came in contact with last 15 days.. not knowing that I was tested postive for this deadly virus… I really wish that our authorities take a strick action towards this deadly virus.. and put a better healthcare system in place…


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I am married!!

I’ve written about a lot of things on my blog that I felt were important (and unimportant too) to me, so it’s something of an uncanny feeling to know that I’m writing about the one that’s the most important thing I’ve ever written. I got married, yeah I know I’m late in writing this… its been over a month that I got married. I so wanted to write this post but couldn’t do so earlier.. thinking that its always better late than never.. here it starts..

My hubby’s name (yeah hubby!) is Saurabh Tuteja (I call him Tutu as many of his friends) Many of you who know me in person have met him and know of him.

It’s hard to find words to describe something as amazing as what this past month and half was like for me. The funny thing about life is that the most profound things are often the most banal. Our story is unique and at the same time exactly the same as every love story that’s ever been. Though this was the most personal thing I’ve ever been through, it’s one of the few events so universal that almost everyone understands it. And I wish everyone could have the happiness we do, and could have as much fun as we’ve been having.

But there are the parts that are uniquely us, maybe even some ideas that might inspire other people who wrestle with the everyday details of relationships, commitment, family, friendship, and marriage. I don’t intend to write about what he means to me, because some things are just for us.

So how did I get to this point? Growing up, I didn’t understand marriage in the same way as my peers. My parents basically had an arranged marriage, which gave me a vastly different perspective on the path to commitment. (Arranged marriages aren’t quite as exotic as most people seem to think: Being set up with someone who shares your economic, cultural, religious, and social background is pretty much a universal tendency, whether the setup happens through one’s parents, a temple mixer, or on any

The defining trait of marriage in these contexts is that the commitment comes first. It doesn’t occur to most people to get upset that they don’t get to choose their siblings; You just love your brother or sister, or you try to, and you fight sometimes and you disagree, and then you get over it, and that’s what family is about. And in some ways, marriage can be like that, too. There’s a liberation in knowing you don’t have an easy out: You know you’re going to make it work, and you’re not going to give up.

So one of the great things about having had the perspective of another culture’s look at marriage was realizing that there’s a freedom in knowing you can always count on the commitment as a framework that you work within. The absence of that immutable commitment was the thing I most lamented and was dismayed by in so many of the marriages I saw growing up. And it made it easier to know when I was ready and that I’d found the right person who shared that desire, even in a thoroughly Indian context.

Once you get to the point where you know you’re ready to get married, though, there’s a lot of logistics. And I think it’s probably stressful for most people. Everything I’d seen on television or movies or magazines seemed so much more focused on people getting “weddinged” than on getting married. If you tell people you’re engaged, they start talking to you about that one day, and almost never about the other half century you’re signing up for.

The sad truth is, when it comes time to get married, people talk about arbitrary (or tacky!) traditions and what kind of dessert you’re going to have and who’s sitting at what table. But they don’t talk about whether the couple really tells each other the truth, whether they share the same opinion about family and things. If those things don’t sound romantic to you, then maybe you’re not doing it right.

I’ve been married of just one and a half month; I won’t pretend that I can give anybody advice on married life. But I’ve already seen what’s worked to get me to a commitment and a love I never thought I’d find. I’ve learned that, when you’re doing things right, starting a life together as a couple can be fun and enjoyable and downright simple.

And perhaps just as importantly, I learned that you can define love and life on your own terms. Our families and friends came together to bring us together. And in the end, that inspiration is what we’re trying to honor by making this step together.

Among the many things that were said, some of the words that a dear friend shared struck me as the best lesson I learned in getting married. And like I said, it could seem simple, even obvious, when you read it on a screen, because it’s so universal. But when you live it and make a public commitment to it, it becomes downright profound.

What he told is that, in the end, only love matters. Success and fame and wealth and even health all fade in time, and in the end all you have is love. And love is what matters. I hope everyone in the world gets the chance to discover that in the way that I have. I love you, Tutu.


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Going back to memory lanes..

This post is solely dedicated to my brother.. mera bhai 🙂

Today…while searching for some files in my system I got this song in some folder.. “Afreen Afreen” by Nurat fateh ali khan.. guess its been one of the most popular songs by Nurat Fateh ali khan..

listening to this song took me back into memory lanes..

its been a thing of over 15 years.. when I was in my middle school and my brother in his late teens.. on some diwali…(its been a culture for a long to buy some new electronics over diwali in our family) we got a new samsung music system (CD Player), I don’t remember the exact specs of that one of the most special electronic gazette that we bought… but the thing I remember is that it was damn close to him as well as me.. so you must be wondering where the connection of this song.. “Afreen” and this music system and the attachment comes between.. we got a pack of over 20 cd’s FREE with that music system… (p.s. digital form of music were rare that time, and cd’s were quite expensive as per our budget) and out of those 20 cd’s one compact disc had this song.. and my brother used to play this song at highest possible volume almost daily in the morning while he gets ready for his college and me getting ready for school irritating our mother and our neighbors and I used to love that like anything.. I guess my passion of listening music at a high volume comes hereditary… and that music system still lies in my mom’s bed room in a non-working condition as expected… 😛 as we could never find courage or time 😛 whatever your say.. to throw that out.. 🙂

Luv u bro.. miss those amazing days… 😦


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Looking at myself..

Some people can just find reasons to celebrate out of nothing and others (like me) keep sulking and cribbing and remain upset and worried and anxious even when life gives them a reason good enough to celebrate or rather have a bashing celebration!!! I am just hating it and the worst is that I know it the but I am not doing anything about it (apart from posting this rant here) and I don’t even understand why I am not doing anything about it!

I just don’t feel like celebrating… why? I just don’t know! But I know this is not the best thing to do… this is not the best of behaviors… and this is not how I have ever wanted to be! I have always wanted to be and have been the one to show others every minutest reason to smile, to feel good, to celebrate. I remember how often I used to use the phrase ‘C’mon, lets go out and have fun’… And haven’t I always believed that it’s important to celebrate every small occasion with a lot of passion to appreciate small things in life which are apparently more important than the so-called ‘big’ ones!

And I remember sending cards and flowers and SMSes I don’t know what all to people to celebrate li’l things like rose day/b’day/promotions/v day/friendship day and every other ‘day’ on the planet, to make them smile when they are feeling down for no reason, to wish good luck, or sometimes just wishing a smile for someone to make the day special… then why the hell can’t I do it for myself? Why can’t I celebrate my small but special moments/days… why can’t I smile for the same things when the happen with me, on which I like making others smile? I wonder where will I land up in life with so many ‘whys’… and today I am forcing myself to have fun.. m planning a vacation thinking that it might help me come out of this irritation..

This is not funny at all…. especially knowing myself, knowing how much I have always cared for these ‘may be stupid’ things…. and right now I feel like laughing at myself… It seems like life is telling me… look you idiot…how you used to waste time on these stupid things…and like a small child I am telling it that those things were not stupid… they were always worth that celebration… and then.. it just laughs at me.. and I keep standing with my head down…

I am just plain, simple irritated right now… not with anyone else but myself… I don’t have to do this to myself!

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Again ranting time..

Yes, I am irritated again. Like really bad! I am having bad mood swings… nothing special really.. its just that time!

But right now everything seem so wrong…and at this point, I am capable of grumbling over just about anything…like the wind blowing or the sun shining or the mountains not moving or the sky not being pink or the water being wet or the Earth being round or whatever!

I hate it. I hate these oscillations in my freaking head! But as always writing helps… and am feeling little better already but then people…still beware of me today!

Plzzzzzzzz………. Someone help me smile…!!!


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